2021 — A Year of Growth and Reality — January 31st, 2021 — Catching Up

Today, I got together with a group of friends that I haven’t seen since a year and a half ago. We all used to go to school together for three years, and see each other every single day, so once people moved away, got lives outside of school, and then weren’t able to hangout over the summer because of COVID. It was weird seeing everyone again and seeing how much older we all looked and how different our lives were now but then, everything with our relationships together and how we interacted being exactly the same. I was so nice to know that even after all this time, even though it really doesn’t sound too long, we were able to talk to each other the same way we used to and not have to act like we were strangers again.

There was a period in my life where I had questioned if I really still had friends because I was so used to being able to see them everyday and talking to them, that once that all was put on hold and we lost contact, except for quick conversations with a few here and there, I felt so lonely and wasn’t sure that even though nothing happened to sever our relationship nothing was really done to keep it alive. Anytime I would see other people posting themselves with their group of friends, I would get so sad and long to have what they had so badly. It hurt even more because for such a long time I knew how great that feeling was and was able to have it as a constant in my life for such a long time and then had it cut out of my life completely.

Seeing them was so weird but felt so familiar so my brain was so confused but so happy the whole time. It made me feel so great and I’m really glad I was able to start the year of with the people that I know I always have fun with and I’m able to feel comfortable around. We’re already planning on doing something like this again in about a week and I’m hoping that we’ll be able to get back into the same routine we had before. Not everyone was able to come and I’m hoping next time we’ll be able to get more of us together but I really do feel like it was a great start. Gave me a piece of mind and definitely made me laugh like I haven’t been able to for at least a few months.